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Dead Air

Aubrey Bahala

It was my entire fault, and I won’t contradict that what

I did was humiliatingly wrong. I won’t force

You to believe anymore to a word my mouth would

Utter. There’s no need for me to stay here, I should

Run away and begin to dig my grave where I could

Hide my face in so much shame. But would you please

Hear this one last given chance, because I may regret

Not being able to say it right in front of you.

There’s no need for you to believe.

There’s no need for you to answer back.

Silence. It would answer everything. It would mean

Sincere listening despite of all that I’ve done:

DECEIT.

You were a part of my world. A steadfast thread

To my kite when the wind begins to blow hard again.

You were strong, but this time

I’m letting you go. Please surrender. I can never

Allow myself to hurt you again. This was all

An act of selfishness by me.

An eternal sin of making you feel worthless.

I am sorry. I am sending you my sincerest apology.

Forget my name and don’t heed my call, forget

The coffee cups we’ve collected and the cigarette

Butts we’ve kept. Throw it all away.

Throw everything away.

I ruined my chance, I wasted your effort.

Too foolish to regret now what I did. I can’t

Bring back time. This time, I’ll run away.

And when dead air is the only language

Between our hearts yearning for

Conversations…

I choose to just cry silently, to hide

The destruction happening inside of me.

Right now, right here

Where we first say what we felt back then.